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Thursday, February 28th, 2013
2:44 am
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Sunday, February 24th, 2013
2:37 pm - the yardbirds - turn into earth

I may never get tired of listening to this one.

I swear this isn't because of my Supernatural fixation. It more just, uh...led me to this point.

current mood: bored

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Wednesday, August 29th, 2012
7:32 pm
In high school I was short listed for the title of "Most likely to be a crazy cat lady" and everyone who I've told that to recently has been like, "Huh. Well I guess you're well on your way," because man I talk about my cat WAY TOO MUCH and I'm sure it's hindering my already questionable reputation as a hip person. My cat has a much more dramatic life than I do these days though. He was attacked by raccoons and had to get his tail amputated, he gets doped up on kitty morphine every six hours, and he has some sort of rare tumor on his paw that spontaneously starts bleeding sometimes. According to the vet that is a legitimate symptom, but the why of it is shrouded in mystery.

This is no mystery to me, of course: My cat has stigmata.

Writing has been a long, slow slog lately which is disappointing, but I'm trying to just keep chugging along and hope for the best. Also, I start back at school on Tuesday and I'm actually really nervous. I've been a dilettante for the better part of a year now. I'm not entirely sure how people living on communal time operate anymore.

current mood: nervous

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Wednesday, August 8th, 2012
2:41 am
Is it bad that all I want to do is lie around and read YA urban fantasy books? Because it definitely is. I've ripped through all the Mortal Instruments series this week and I am so sucked into them I feel like a geeky kid again or something. When I was ten or eleven and I first started reading Tamora Pierce I literally made my mom drive to the bookstore at like 9PM on a school night because I had run out of Immortals books and needed to pick up Song of the Lioness IMMEDIATELY. And she actually drove me, bless her heart. Anyway that is how I am now except I'm a grown up with a buss pass or whatever.

This whole turn of events is sort of disturbing because I was on this big classic lit kick and had been feeling very well read and now I am just kind of a nerd. Also I'm pretty sure I remember Cassandra Clare being a rascal of questionable morals back in her fanfic days? So I'm not sure how crazy I am about how totally obsessed with her work I am now.

current mood: confused

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Tuesday, June 26th, 2012
11:17 am
I reread THE GREAT GATSBY yesterday and it is sort of all I can think about now. I love it when a book it so good that even when you have read it before you are thinking about it days later upon rereading. I'm really, really excited for the Baz Luhrman movie in December as well (although I am sad the Ben Affleck as Tom Buchnanen thing never panned out!)

Anyway now I kind of want to pick up some more Fitzgerald because I've actually never read anything of his other than GATSBY and that is sad. What do people recommend? I guess THE BEAUTIFUL AND THE DAMNED?

In writing news I finished act 1 of DRAIG yesterday! Yeahhhhh. It's just over 16,000 words but we'll see how that changes in the second draft (if my revision notes are any indication it will be a whole lot). Anyway, it's fun to be on the second act, because it takes place in a whole new setting, and I was getting kind of sick of that freaking airship.

current mood: tired

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Thursday, June 21st, 2012
1:58 pm
I am so freaking productive I can't even stand it. I have:

Done the dishes
Cleaned out the compost bin
Cleaned my bathroom
Washed my bedroom floor
Changed my sheets
Done two loads of laundry
Outlined the next two chapters of DRAIG
Read the whole paper, not just the Magnotti and Egypt and anti-China propaganda stuff!

Please note that NOT on this list are

Put any actual word count into DRAIG

I say productive, but it's all just a new form of procrastination. Grauuuuugh.

current mood: productive

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12:01 pm
The newspaper this morning informed me that it has been very hot in southwestern Ontario.

To which I reply: NO FUCKING SHIT!

It is hot and I am very cranky. But on the bright side, I have internet again! It blew out over the last few days, so I am really pleased. It's the little things I guess.

I have to admit though, while not on the net I got a whooooole lot of writing done which was nice. Well, when my laptop wasn't being weird I did anyway. It's doing this new thing where it fades really really pale and then kind of freezes but not really? Like I can still move the mouse and switch windows it is just really slow going and everything kind of blurs into everything else? I have no idea what it is happening. Maybe it is just wearing out. Anyway I emailed all my important files to myself this morning as soon as I saw the internet was back up, so I think I am just going to wait this one out for now, since I only have the money for a new laptop in crazy people world.

current mood: hot

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Tuesday, June 19th, 2012
12:10 am
There is nothing I am more awkward at than writing love scenes, but I am also kind of a sucker for READING them, so there is usually some kind of romance in my writing. I try to bribe myself: Every time I get through an exceptionally awkward romantic bit I can really concentrate on something with robots or things blowing up or big dramatic fights afterwards, which are my favorite things to write!

But as it happens I have hit an unlikely wall where I had to concentrate on TWO romantic scenes today because in a sad coinciding both my projects just happen to be at that point.

So, so awkward. Remind me never to ever write a straight up romance because I will literally die of the awk. I am going to go watch Dragon Ball Z now or something.

short excerpt under the cut although I am totally embarrassed to be posting even this but I guess I should get used to sharing my original work moreCollapse )

current mood: embarrassed

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Saturday, June 16th, 2012
4:16 pm
Booyah NXNE has been really fun so far. On Monday I saw Metric and on Thursday I saw Grass Widow and last night I saw a bunch of stuff including Doldrums, who were actually super underwhelming live, but I guess not everything can be sensational.

And tonight I am seeing The Flaming Lips! Jill has been over for lots of it -- she came to Metric and was here last night and also today. She is playing Diablo 3 in the attic right now though, because I told her I needed to work in the afternoon today.

Which SPEAKING OF I am actually really happy with how much work I have gotten done today. Lots and lots of writing work and also some paperwork for school (which starts September 4! Ahhhh can't wait to be a student again!)

I got through a bunch of weird plot snarls in my book and finally feel like I am moving forward. My only concern right now is that for a fantasy universe I have uh...an awful lot of robots. When does that become jarring?! Mixing sci fi and fantasy, I mean?

current mood: curious

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Friday, June 15th, 2012
9:55 am
Thoughts on The Globe and Mail this morning:

1. I can't believe "Calgary gets historic railroad spike for its museum!" is page 2 news. PAGE TWO OF THE NEWS. Oh, Canada.

2. Two page spread on the post-Stanley Cup riots in Vancouver this year. Really? I think this is a little overblown. I mean yes, Vancouver did mix it up a little questionably last year, but cut them some slack. Hockey is just about the only thing Canadians get all hot blooded over, and they felt really bad about it afterwards! I bet nobody in London went downtown to clean up their riot mess last year!

3. Two articles on China, both of which make China out to be an adorable nation that is trying real hard, despite being overrun with sexist, communist baby killers. I have a theory that the US has been othering China in the media out of fear of their rising power and that is trickling into Canadian news. But I'm also told I'm a conspiracy theorizing hipster.

Anyway, the bottom line is I am glad I am not a news reporter. It seems thankless and too easily misread. I think I would always be frustrated.

current mood: chipper

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Saturday, May 26th, 2012
12:57 am

(He) leaves undiscovered, to walk on water now.
How do you want me, how do you want me now?
Time’s in the middle, unwind just a little,
Storms are going to throw you to waves,
I’ve heard of you, I’ve heard of you,
You’re wishing for rain.
You’re missing the raid.

Burn in the summer, walk under water now,
With the white wolves, with the white wolves.
How do you want me, how do you want me now?
Minds are going to walk on paths formed by the sun,
With the white wolves, with the white wolves.
Minds are going wild like dogs in every town.
You’re missing the raid,
You’re wishing for rain.

I can see the sun, I can see the moon,
I can feel those eyes lighting up the room.

She said she’d never love me anymore,
She said she’d never want me anymore,
She said she’d never love me…
But the lion, the lake and the lover are at your door.

Where’d you get your lines from, where’d you get your name from?
Where’d you get your thoughts from, where’d you get your name from?

The lion, the lake and the lover are at your door.

current mood: sleepy

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Friday, May 11th, 2012
6:33 pm

Popcorn went to the vet today to get X Rays and stuff! I was sort of worried because he is really super old and also he had some unidentified lump in his foot that needed to get removed but it was benign, whatever it was. Hooray for Popcorn! The most immortal of us all!

current mood: relieved

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Thursday, May 10th, 2012
4:54 pm
Is it especially tragic that I feel like I have had a super accomplished day if I get out of bed before ten? Because I do, I totally do.

I guess I am at a sort of odd point in my life. I'm starting my postgraduate degree in publishing in September, but that is still four months away. I'm going to California for a big chunk of July, but that is still two months away. And I'm unemployed at the moment, for a few reasons, but partially because it seems kind of moot to look for something until (a) I come back from California, and (b) I know what my working restriction will be with my OSAP agreement/class schedules.

I'm supposed to be using this time to work on my writing, and I am, I really am, but it is still frustrating because I feel like nobody really takes me seriously. I mean, I have a daily commitment to Alleged Whiskey, and between our guest strip on Girls With Slingshots and promoting at TCAF (mostly GWS tbh), we are actually seeing results in our viewership, but I still feel like a huge swath of my friends and family treats it like some goofy project I'm tooling around on with Jamie. And I try to work on other writing projects every day as well (although let's ignore the whole fanfiction addiction for now).

I think that a lot of the people I know have an assumption that if you aren't working (even if only at a Coffee Time or something), then you probably are not doing anything all day, which isn't necessarily true. And I know that "who cares what other people think" has been the slogan of frustrated people outside the box since the very first middle school was invented, but well...I care. I care what people think.


current mood: wahmbulancey

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Friday, May 4th, 2012
11:55 pm
There is a moth that lives in my room (I assume it is just the one moth because I've never seen it hanging out with any other moth bros). I keep intending to murders it before it chews up my shit, but I sort of named it, so it's like a beloved pet or something now.

The problem is, I keep forgetting what I have named it! But at this point I have figured, this whole friendship with a moth is roughly 86% in my head, so many it doesn't matter if its' name changes every couple of days. If "Boy Meets World" doesn't need continuity, why do I, right!?

I guess what I am trying to say is I have come up with several names that would be excellent for a moth. I can only hope this comes in handy somewhere down the road. These names include:


What a lucky moth...

current mood: pleased

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Thursday, May 3rd, 2012
5:03 am

I fell into that weird part of the internet where I start watching late night talk show clips, and fell over this! holy crap! what smolder!

I wonder if Harrison Ford was actually that intense when talking to people, or if he was trying to tap that, because he is having full on cheer sex with his interviewer.

Also, it’s not just me, it was a pretty common commentary in the comments (ha) section. I feel like I am too into comment boards on things. Sometimes I’ll read youtube comments sections with more interest than I actually had in the video (also io9 comments).

current mood: giddy

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Wednesday, May 2nd, 2012
10:54 pm

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4:18 pm
Doing things is so tragic and difficult. Like, I can't even check my email without having a panic attack.

But really, is it just me, or is email WAY more complicated than it was ten years ago? I used to have one email and all I got in it was like, fanfiction reviews and yahoo digests and stuff. And now I have something like FOUR email accounts that I am supposed to be checking out every day but I never do because whenever I look in my email now it is just people reminding me of stuff I need to do/yelling at me for stuff I didn't do/trying to sell me coupons, and then eventually I am so overwhelmed that I don't even see the emails that I should/want to attend to.

(But then it has been so long that by the time I discover them, answering these emails seems like a herculean effort because I feel like all that will accomplish is reminding the sender that I never responded to their email... and, well, hyperbole and a half explains it better than I ever could.)

Basically, even the internet will not let me be a slacker anymore.

current mood: distressed

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12:30 am

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Tuesday, May 1st, 2012
11:28 pm
Honestly, I just want to write fanfiction all day, but I guess that isn't a very grown up way to live.

This could easily have been a tweet. Oh well.

current mood: working

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Friday, June 10th, 2011
8:02 am
Well, never let it be said that my life is not strange and tumultuous.

On Tuesday at work, I was asked to send out a rather large email (2000+ people). It was a call to get people to vote for my company in some awards ceremony. "Mercedes, please bcc this to the list of candidate I sent you," one of my bosses said.

"Okie dokie," I replied, although really I was thinking ugh, the tedious bitch work that is the lot of the receptionist.

Twenty minutes later, I got a very unhappy call from my boss. "Mercedes, did you bcc that email?"

"Uh, yeah, like twenty minutes ago?"

"You're sure? You're sure you BCC'D THAT EMAIL?"

And I, thinking Oh crap, what did I do?! checked the email. Which I had, in fact, not BCC'd, but CC'd.

(Tech break: To bcc an email is to send so you cannot see any of the recipients, as a recipient. CC and everyone can see everything).

Of course, my boss already knew that, because he had received a very angry email from a candidate who was outraged and disgusted that anybody would dare make her email known in a forward, the scoundrels. Not only was she outraged and disgusted at this gross breach of confidence (her words, not mine), but she was now going to call her lawyers and see what THEY had to say about this.

It was at this point I began to suspect that I might be in trouble.

Ten minutes later when I was asked to come to the conference room to speak on the phone to the CEO in Monaco, I was pretty sure I was in trouble.

"What happened?" The CEO asked me.

"Um. Well I was sending out that email. And I guess I cc'd it instead of bcc'ing it. I'm really sorry!"

"Were you told to bcc it?"

"Yes, but I made a mis--"

"You're sacked."

And then she hung up. And poof! I was sacked. It was so sudden I was sure it must be a joke, or a turn of phrase, or maybe the British always hyperbolically fire people the same way we will say "You're so dead!" but like...we aren't REALLY going to kill the person.

It was not. I was totally sacked, and fifteen minutes later, my desk was cleared, and I was out the door, aimlessly wandering the streets and thinking FML. Now what?!

For those keeping track: Yes, within 45 minutes of being told to send that email, I was fired because of it. FML.

This was on Tuesday. On Wednesday, I decided to make some changes. I'm kind of over London, to be honest, so my first move was to LEAVE LONDON. I called to break my lease (bye bye deposit) and figured out where I wanted to go next. My plan after London was always to go to France for a few months to study, so I thought, hey, I'll just move that up, which I have done.

Of course, there was still a four day period between when my rent was through and classes started, so I was left with the decision of what to do THEN. Conveniently, the south of France (where I will be studying) is awfully close to Barcelona, in Spain.

So I guess what I am saying is...I was totally fired on Tuesday, but on the bright side I am going to Spain in three weeks!

Twists and turns, man. Twists and turns.

current mood: shocked

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